Losing myself

The laziness growing inside me, I can feel that.

My life is such a mess as well as my job. Well, what could I say, don't let your boss defined you!

Pretty upset with my job, and myself. Working like a robot everyday, and won't get leave. Pleading is required, and be your boss's favour person, or else go back to dream for your holiday.

Well, as for myself, I still remembered how I promised myself that I will be productive, proactive, and NEVER procrastinate my work. That's a big lie now. Argghhh! Hate myself for that!

I wish that I have the courage to leave my job now, and go out to explore the world~ I need to build up my courageous, and open my eyes to see the world ~ Travelling not going to satisfy me in a way that it couldn't give me the insight to peek in and live in others' culture, others' living  and get some new experience.

I kind of losing myself here. Not sure what am I doing, why I am in this world. I earn, I pay and I repeat this every month. End up I not sure what I got after almost one year of working.

Guess I should stop thinking of the nonsense and keep on living on my robotic life now.
I will change it one day. Stop the robotic life and get the life that I want, and I will definitely get it. That one day will not be far. I promise.