Stress, and I cried again.. I feel helpless, lonely, and I started to miss him..I know I shouldn't, but I just can't help. I hate exam!! Why I need to memorize all those useless stuffs? Still remember, in primary school, secondary school or form six, I never stress like this. If I understand what teacher taught in class, I can easily recall in exam. The questions those times, is not something that we need to memorize and reproduce. Understanding will do most of the time. I don't have to force myself to memorize everything word by word, and suffering like this.
I'm tired. Next year Christmas, I'm not a student anymore. No exam. Maybe student's life is more enjoyable compare to working life. As we have more holiday. Yet, we don't have to face this stress when we're working. No need to memorize. Just understanding will do.
Tuesday, 25 December 2012
Sunday, 23 December 2012
3 more days...
3 more days to my actual exam. I still here wasting my time, watching detective conan, escaping from reality. I feel helpless, and hopeless. The good me, and bad me is quarreling within me, I can feel it. I don't know how, the bad me seem like always win the war. Meaning I less of self -control? Definitely.
I just want to talk to someone. My closest friend. Now I started to doubt whether I have close friend at all.. Stop here, and force myself to study. I can make it. For sure! Have faith!!
I just want to talk to someone. My closest friend. Now I started to doubt whether I have close friend at all.. Stop here, and force myself to study. I can make it. For sure! Have faith!!
Wednesday, 19 December 2012
Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden
Truly Madly Deeply ♥
I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on A new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning.
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on A new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning.
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you
I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do
I want to stand with you on a mountain...
Until the sky falls down on me
Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do
I want to stand with you on a mountain...
P/S: Heard this song from songpop, I really love it~ Heard this before, but never know the title.. Song from old days always better, and greater~ ♥
Tuesday, 18 December 2012
Epic Fail Management!!
Yesterday, got a really BIG BOMB from our faculty, or exam division. Not very sure about which department. It's not really matter anyway, the thing that matter, EXAM SCHEDULE AMENDMENT!!! What the HELL??!! You're telling me exam is postponed in study week? and the reason... due to Christmas holidays??
Christmas is on 25 Dec, every year, the same, never change. Why the hell the exam was arranged in 24 and 26 Dec on the first place? When the semester started, you guys should have alert by this, and arrange the schedule according, skip the christmas holiday. Management fail! And the new schedule make me want to say, 'well done! Only Aimst Uni can do this. Great!'. Exam on Saturday, and 3 days consecutively?? I really don't know what response I should give to them. What to do? We're just students, and we just can follow whatever they set. No objection. Nothing we can do. Personal opinion, they really need to accept suggestion from others, and stop being self-centered.
Just before our study week, we had an argument with staffs in exam division. The reason, because they won't let us to collect our exam slip. According to their rule, only can collect from 2.30pm to 4.30pm. I really don't understand why it has to be like this? We have classes in most of the afternoon hour, and they expect us to skip class and get the slip? Why we can't collect in the morning? What's wrong with it? When we were there to ask for exam slip, the guy there told us that it is still under process, so have to come in the afternoon. But, my friends just got the exam slip the day before we went, and got their slips, and you're telling me now still under process??? Seriously?!! When he learnt about this, he just changed what he'd just said, and told us according to the rule, we can't get it. I came half way from my oral exam to get this, and you're telling me according to the stupid rule, we can't get it??
Distributing exam slip, is just a simple stuff. Take id, find the slip, and let us sign. Done. They are so free in the office, sitting there happily, didn't look busy at all. And somemore have time to argue with us for so long. Then why don't just give us the slip? Wasting our time. Besides, their attitude really bad and rude. I actually want to tell them, don't forget who you get your salary from. If we didn't enrolled and study here, you just prepare to get fired! With all the bad attitude they have, they're blaming us that we're the one that talked very rude to them, and they're innocent? Hah~! Funny~ I really think that our Uni should really consider the stupid rules that they'd set previously, and evaluate the mental test, and personality test as well as EQ test for their staffs. If they want to become one of the top Uni, the most important things will be STAFFS and MANAGEMENT. Fail management plus rude staffs, I don't see how far it'll go. Of course, I want the best for my Uni, that's why evaluation and review should be done.
Now, I'm still procrastinating my study plan, with my laziness. Argh~!! I really hope that there is a drug that can help to eliminate laziness, and the side effect is boost up memory! It's 11pm, and I still stuck with my pharmacology.. Should've start my Clinical Pharmacy by today, and finish it. Guess my plan just fail again... ='(
Christmas is on 25 Dec, every year, the same, never change. Why the hell the exam was arranged in 24 and 26 Dec on the first place? When the semester started, you guys should have alert by this, and arrange the schedule according, skip the christmas holiday. Management fail! And the new schedule make me want to say, 'well done! Only Aimst Uni can do this. Great!'. Exam on Saturday, and 3 days consecutively?? I really don't know what response I should give to them. What to do? We're just students, and we just can follow whatever they set. No objection. Nothing we can do. Personal opinion, they really need to accept suggestion from others, and stop being self-centered.
Just before our study week, we had an argument with staffs in exam division. The reason, because they won't let us to collect our exam slip. According to their rule, only can collect from 2.30pm to 4.30pm. I really don't understand why it has to be like this? We have classes in most of the afternoon hour, and they expect us to skip class and get the slip? Why we can't collect in the morning? What's wrong with it? When we were there to ask for exam slip, the guy there told us that it is still under process, so have to come in the afternoon. But, my friends just got the exam slip the day before we went, and got their slips, and you're telling me now still under process??? Seriously?!! When he learnt about this, he just changed what he'd just said, and told us according to the rule, we can't get it. I came half way from my oral exam to get this, and you're telling me according to the stupid rule, we can't get it??
Distributing exam slip, is just a simple stuff. Take id, find the slip, and let us sign. Done. They are so free in the office, sitting there happily, didn't look busy at all. And somemore have time to argue with us for so long. Then why don't just give us the slip? Wasting our time. Besides, their attitude really bad and rude. I actually want to tell them, don't forget who you get your salary from. If we didn't enrolled and study here, you just prepare to get fired! With all the bad attitude they have, they're blaming us that we're the one that talked very rude to them, and they're innocent? Hah~! Funny~ I really think that our Uni should really consider the stupid rules that they'd set previously, and evaluate the mental test, and personality test as well as EQ test for their staffs. If they want to become one of the top Uni, the most important things will be STAFFS and MANAGEMENT. Fail management plus rude staffs, I don't see how far it'll go. Of course, I want the best for my Uni, that's why evaluation and review should be done.
Now, I'm still procrastinating my study plan, with my laziness. Argh~!! I really hope that there is a drug that can help to eliminate laziness, and the side effect is boost up memory! It's 11pm, and I still stuck with my pharmacology.. Should've start my Clinical Pharmacy by today, and finish it. Guess my plan just fail again... ='(
= Be Miserable.
Or Motivate Yourself.
Whatever Has To Be Done,
It's Always Your Choice. =
~ Wayne Dyer ~
Sunday, 16 December 2012
Ways to live happy
It's been months since my last update. Busy life, plus my laziness, once again I abandoned my blog, feel bad.
This semester was the busiest in my degree life. Positive about this. Clinical training, reports, assignments, presentation... It's really too much for me to take in, and overwhelming. Beginning of this semester, same as previous, I told myself must study before study week, be hardworking, blablabla... As usual, I didn't make it. Sometimes, I really angry with myself, feeling hopeless, and useless. Maybe, this is me. I never be hardworking enough, like others, although I wish to be. I just give too much excuses to myself, and demotivate me from achieving it.
Watched "Life of Pi", twice to be precised. Lesson learnt: we, human are able to handle anything, to overcome all hardship we faced, overpower the challenges ahead, crossover the obstacles. The only thing we need, is to believe in ourselves. Have faith, that you can make it somehow, persistent, hold on till succeed, never give up. Isn't this is what life about? To challenges, to learn, to fail, to grow, and finally succeed.
Read a book the other day, 365 ways to live happy, a gift for my sister from her boss. First, choose to think happy thoughts. Don't let your negative mindset control over you. Be an optimist rather than a pessimist. Second, smile more often. Force yourself to smile, and think of this sentence in mind, " I'm happy, totally blissfully happy". Smile is the simple thing to affect others with happiness. So, spread this infection, widely. Next, change one of your faults. To do this, you must be complete honest to yourself. Choose to fix what you don't like about yourself, see goodness in yourself and others. (I think for me, is laziness I need to eliminate!!)
Don't harbour a grudge. Holding on to anger, resentment and hostility only hurt your own, and make yourself suffer. Manage anger. (This one I definitely need!!!) Moreover, cultivate hope when disaster hits. If something isn't going well with life, have hope that circumstances will shift, and the situation will improve and resolve eventually. Find courage to change the current situation, rather than let stress and anxiety to empower you, and fill you with worry and stress. Try to feel hopeful. Furthermore, everyone need praise. We grow up happily as a child, because we often received praise, compliment, and from there we have hope, and courage. As we grow up, we become hesistate to do what we want, or becoming who we are, because we're too scare of how to society is going to evaluate us, what others will talk or think about us. No more compliments, but just blame, argue, and critics everywhere. That's what kill our creativity, and we tend to be the same as others in society rather than unique. Praise yourself, reward yourself when you deserve it. This helps to build your courageous, your personality, and self-esteem.
This book is really meaningful, and of course do help me to find happiness in my own. Like the title of the book. Love what I'm doing, and enjoy my life. This is the motto of my life, and I must always remind myself in this.
By the way, I'm in my study now, again~ Second last semester of my degree life, and I really hope I can finish my degree with no regret. (I regretted on my secondary school, and form six results. Just don't want to add another one.) I should probably get back to study now. =)
# Pimples pop out, and I have no idea why this all sudden. Sad!! ='(
This semester was the busiest in my degree life. Positive about this. Clinical training, reports, assignments, presentation... It's really too much for me to take in, and overwhelming. Beginning of this semester, same as previous, I told myself must study before study week, be hardworking, blablabla... As usual, I didn't make it. Sometimes, I really angry with myself, feeling hopeless, and useless. Maybe, this is me. I never be hardworking enough, like others, although I wish to be. I just give too much excuses to myself, and demotivate me from achieving it.
Watched "Life of Pi", twice to be precised. Lesson learnt: we, human are able to handle anything, to overcome all hardship we faced, overpower the challenges ahead, crossover the obstacles. The only thing we need, is to believe in ourselves. Have faith, that you can make it somehow, persistent, hold on till succeed, never give up. Isn't this is what life about? To challenges, to learn, to fail, to grow, and finally succeed.
Read a book the other day, 365 ways to live happy, a gift for my sister from her boss. First, choose to think happy thoughts. Don't let your negative mindset control over you. Be an optimist rather than a pessimist. Second, smile more often. Force yourself to smile, and think of this sentence in mind, " I'm happy, totally blissfully happy". Smile is the simple thing to affect others with happiness. So, spread this infection, widely. Next, change one of your faults. To do this, you must be complete honest to yourself. Choose to fix what you don't like about yourself, see goodness in yourself and others. (I think for me, is laziness I need to eliminate!!)
Don't harbour a grudge. Holding on to anger, resentment and hostility only hurt your own, and make yourself suffer. Manage anger. (This one I definitely need!!!) Moreover, cultivate hope when disaster hits. If something isn't going well with life, have hope that circumstances will shift, and the situation will improve and resolve eventually. Find courage to change the current situation, rather than let stress and anxiety to empower you, and fill you with worry and stress. Try to feel hopeful. Furthermore, everyone need praise. We grow up happily as a child, because we often received praise, compliment, and from there we have hope, and courage. As we grow up, we become hesistate to do what we want, or becoming who we are, because we're too scare of how to society is going to evaluate us, what others will talk or think about us. No more compliments, but just blame, argue, and critics everywhere. That's what kill our creativity, and we tend to be the same as others in society rather than unique. Praise yourself, reward yourself when you deserve it. This helps to build your courageous, your personality, and self-esteem.
This book is really meaningful, and of course do help me to find happiness in my own. Like the title of the book. Love what I'm doing, and enjoy my life. This is the motto of my life, and I must always remind myself in this.
By the way, I'm in my study now, again~ Second last semester of my degree life, and I really hope I can finish my degree with no regret. (I regretted on my secondary school, and form six results. Just don't want to add another one.) I should probably get back to study now. =)
# Pimples pop out, and I have no idea why this all sudden. Sad!! ='(
= To Succeed, You Need To Find
Something To Hold On To,
Something To Motivate You,
Something To Inspire You. =
~Tony Dorsett~
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