The Punishment . I Deserve

This time, I really get my lesson, my punishment.
I knew that I deserve it. Didn't study for exam? Now I know what I have to face.
I always thought that I become more hardworking than last time.
Actually, I was lazier. At least I finished everything, with my focus mind before exam.
Not like this mid sem. I slept before finished study, and read through without focus.
I had been indulging myself for so long. Being lazy.

The truth is, I thought I were clever enough, to be lazy.
In fact, I'm just an arrogant dumbass! I thought things never change. I thought I still good enough to score without put in efforts. And now I got it. The consequences. The bad results. The humiliation.
Ya, I take it as a very serious humiliation!
Worse still, I deserve it. I did it myself!
If I continue this bad attitude, this arrogant habit, and laziness, I know for sure, I can't make it to First Class. That will be a dream, and remain as a dream forever and ever. I have to change it, to make things better, to be a better me.

It's never too late. I believe this and I hope it is right.
It's no use crying over spilt milk. Crying won't do any help. It just brings misery.
What I have to do now, is stick to my plan, and pay more attention in my studies.
To get back what I've lose, to regain what I might've lose.
Never give up before trying.
Forget the arrogance and laziness.
Fill back in with hard works and concentration, focus.
This is my last chance, if I lose it, then it means forever.