my feeling~ 6 june 2011~

I always thought that our bond are strong,

after so many things that we've been through together...

Well, guess that I'm wrong again.

I really hate when people slander me, frame me.

Insist that I've done something bad that actually I'm not.

I will become mad, and stick to my stand, when thing come to that.

May be in this problem, part of it was my fault.

I shouldn't talk till so serious.

But actually when i wrote that, I thought that was just another joke between us.

Since we like to play that, often.

End up, that was a joke for others.

Who waiting for us to have internal war, and going to laugh behind us.

Ignoring our phone calls, refuse to reply our message, you're serious about that.

Didn't you??

I've been such an idiot. Worry that may be something have happen to you,

and you become busy or depress about that.

I keep calling to make sure that you're okay.

And finally what I've got myself? A fragile bonding.

I don't want to believe this. I keep on hypnotize myself.

This isn't real. You're just playing again. Trying to trick me.

But I failed. I wonder, is this an end, again.

I really doubt that,

am I thinking too much again?or I'm in the right track this time?

You know me well. I guess.

I'm a stubborn person, just like who you are.

We never want to lose.And never say sorry.

This is just like our motto.

I never thought things will become like this.Serious.

Acting like disappear, or may be don't want to bother us,

I really don't know what are you thinking now.

'Never expect others to treat you good just because you treat them well enough.'

I been've siding you, talk nice words for you, and care you as my friend.

Is you think that this is the best way for you to take revenge,

then congrates, you've done it well.

YOU WIN and I'M THE LOSER.

If you think winning this is more important,

then I think you didn't treat me as precious friend, like I treat you.

I just don't want to lose my friend, 

if you still the same one.

Just like before,

the same person.

I don't know if the bond are still there.

If yes, I hope that we can strengthen it.

Because I not willing to let it loose, or break it...

Afterall, I still a normal human, 

with flesh, blood and feeling...