Hope.Dream.

My third post of 2015, and it's already towards the end of January.. It's hard to believe that time has travel so fast! Took day off for today and tomorrow, thinking to meet my sisters in KL, but since both of them are not available, end up going to KL with my housemates on Thursday to Saturday.

It has been more than a year since I started to work here, I miss my hometown- Penang, miss my family, miss the food, miss the building, miss the road, miss the air back in Penang. I really wish to get back Penang, and work there, stay with my mum. ='(

When I was teenager, I always thinking what's the feeling when I turned 26? It's like 25 is the borderline for young and mature, I can't imagine what would I feel, or how I gonna face this. And now, I'm approaching 26. All I can tell is I didn't feel like one. Still immature, still childish, still emotional, still rely on others, still afraid of loneliness. Maturity has nothing to do with age. Growing up can be physically, mentally or both.

They said, we need love to nurture us, so that we will feel young, more energetic and being more lively. I believe in fate, that bring people together. There are some pseudo-fate too, which make you feel like that's fate, but actually is just a passer-by. 26, people around will begin to help you search for partner, lots of match making for you, you will started to think is it you really need to find someone, as everyone around is having someone.

For me, yes I'm afraid of loneliness, I'm so lazy for so many things, so I wish that there is someone can help me to decide, that I can rely on and trust. However, I'm not rushing to get one. I still have my dreams that haven't achieve, I still want to make it comes true. Keep telling myself no matter how hard it is, I can do it. Nothing is impossible. I need to keep telling myself it will works out when most of people around denying the possibility for me to realize that dream of mine.

Hope is a pillar of faith. 

It is pillar which holds our desired dreams.