Is it intuition, or actually I sensed something might be happened yesterday? From morning, I felt uneasy, and feeling like something going to happen. Just that I don't know what is going to happen, and when , where it will take place. I got that sense, though I'm not sure about that.
Long working hours, plus lacks of sleep could drained your energy as well as your ability to focus. I am lucky enough, that no one got injured in the accident, and my car just had minor injuries.
While the incident happened, i was driving alone. Before that, I suppose to follow my friend's car to dinner, end up I driving as I not sure should I go for dinner, or straightly back home. That's the time when it happened.
I think I wasn't focus enough from the moment I stepped in my car. Too many stuffs stuck in my brain. The incident happened during my night shift, the bus ticket that I forgot to buy, and the current issue: should i go for dinner or back home. Everything happened too fast. At the moment my mind decided to go for dinner, I slowed down my car, and 'bang!!!', my car got kiss on the ass.
This was the first time I encountered this, and I definitely had no idea how to handle it. I tried to call my friends (Since I'm not in hometown), and no one answering me (Actually my hp linked to car bluetooth, and I was outside the car, so if I were in car, I will knew I'm the one that not answering..). I was in shock, but I tried to be calmed, after I saw 3 malay guys came out from the car. I think the driver was not a bad person, he just quite concerned with his car, and told me he couldn't hit the break because there was car at the other side. Afterward, more and more of them coming. There was a guy that asking every sorts of questions, and asked me either pay or go for report.
After some time, my friends arrived. As we couldn't actually estimate how much will it costed for the repairing, I decided to go for report. First time to step in police station, report for my own case. While the police and inspector asking me questions, I thought about my patients. This is how they feel like, when doctors and pharmacist keep asking the questions about the incident, their medications, compliance and all those stuffs. It just that I'm the one that had to answer all those questions now.
Everything end in a good and peaceful way. Yet, me myself has to take responsibilities for this incident too. I was indecisive with lots of choices in my mind while I driving; I was too careless that I failed to make full use of my rear view mirror, or else I should have see that coming; I should be more focus, or maybe shouldn't drive when I was too tired for that.
This is definitely a long week for me. Too many things that happened, and taught me lessons. I need to be more independent, and shouldn't rely on others too much, because when something happened, you are the only one that can actually help yourself. No one care about you as much as your family. Never expect other to understand your feeling, and fulfill your expectation. Because it ain't happening.
*Thanks to everyone that lend me a hand when I was in trouble. Appreciate!
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