My time~

Dear SkyRider,

Finally, my mid term test is over. Not really memorize and vomit out everything in this exam, guess the result won't be good either. Surprisingly I didn't undergone any self-blaming or guilty process. Maybe I just used to be me this way. Read, understand, and do it my way. Won't be good, but without stress, I prefer it this way. If I didn't notice much about the Cgpa for First Class Honours. =(

Left aside the exam part, since whatever that is over will not have the chance to re-do or retrieve. It will only and always stay this way. Next, my report. Argh!!! This part I really hate it, as I planned to finish and conclude my report during January itself, and see!! It's April now! And I still stuck with it! Sometimes I really hate me.. Procrastinating almost everything! (If you've read my previous posts, you might find this 'procrastinating' word is kind of common here. XD) 

About my life. I admitted I hate being lonely. Not alone, but lonely. I love to talk, and I hope there will be someone that I can always talk to, and he/she can make the time for me no matter how short notice it is or how ridiculously my excuse I gave. However, here is a thing about life. You can't get everything you want. For me, it's sort of hard to make friend, build the bond, as I'm not easy to trust. Once you make me suspect, I will continue suspecting until I recover evidence to prove your innocent. That's my 'thing', that most people hate, I guess.

I miss Alex. It's been more than 3 months, that he didn't contact with me via mail message. We've been contacting for one year, and I actually used to the habit that he will write to me once in awhile, at least one mail per month. I started to worry is it something happened. ( I pray for that's good thing occurs to him!) Really hope to hear from him soon!

Class at 8am tomorrow. Guess it's time for me to sleep. Good night world. Wishing for a better tomorrow~!