~Him . Me ~

Breakfast in Penang, lunch in Nibong Tebal, shopping in Taiping and dinner in Ipoh. What a great day~! And tiring of course. As usual, it just a travelling and enjoying food section, but today I got something special. A cute guy that I met while having lunch. He looked familiar, but I can't recall whether i had meet him somewhere else. It just like the feeling of I knew him long ago, yet I couldn't recognize him anymore. Weird right?

He kept looking around, and I not really sure is he looking at our table. Maybe I just being sensitive again, but I can sense that he was looking at me, with something ... unusual. Of course I was peeping at him, once in a while, and tried so hard to dig out all the possible places that I might have meeting him. Yet, none that fit it right.

I have a feeling, that we will be meeting each other again. Or it just because, I want to meet him, and I don't know why. This remind me of a guy that I met in a bus 7 years ago. I can barely remember his outline, and facial features. The thing that remain, is the feeling. I can still remember how I feel at that moment, although it sounds a little bit insane, obssessing. XD

Too bad that I didn't took any photos of him, or brave enough to say hi. This must be very weird, to strike up a conversation with a stranger, that I met for the first time. It sounds fun to me though, I will definitely try this if I get a chance. ^^

I always feel that people around me, specifically friends around me, are not that close to me. They won't catch up with me when they are free, and seldom give me response even I tried to contact them first. Sad as I feel like, I have no friends to back me up, when I caught in trouble, I mean if. I started to think, is it my problem? Is it because I not care enough, or they think that I'm not sincere? What should I do, or how can I change this?

Sometimes, I do think that I'm kinda useless to live in this world. No contribution, and not doing any good to people or the society around me. I'm just living in my own world. And I do things based on my mind, or my rational thinking almost all the times. I have no heart. I don't know who I am, or what should I become. I'm an impassionate person, and I living without aim. Is this who I am? Seriously, I not sure. I'm just not so close to myself...